I do like the way the American say things at times. Don't get me wrong, I love England language and how we spell things RIGHT! not like the American's who can't spell for beans in my book. I have a feeling if I took my hubby to England he'd love the bus services, the train service and the health network. If I had a choice I'd go home, but I don't have a choice. I let God guide me to where I should live. I believe he guided me to America and to meet the people I have met and what goes on in my life.
I never really had a faith or believed in God that much when I was in England. I would go to church, but never really felt connected with God. I started searching for answers to many of my questions about belief and God and if he existed. Till I meet my husband and came to America to meet him, I gave up on God. I thought he wasn't listening to me or wanting to be in my life. But now I'm going to church every Sunday, going to my C.R.H.P. meetings. I have found God in such a way I believe he is guiding my hands and letting we work wonders with my writing and also with my prayers.
On the first or second Sunday of the Lenten season, I had such an experience I felt pain free for a little while. If you knew me, I have never been without pain in my whole life. Read the archive posts and you'll see what happened to me. I believe God is working hard in my life and I have actually got a connection with God firs the first time in my whole life. I feel alive and free. I can't explain to others about the feeling of having God inside me, but if you're a christian you'll know what I'm talking about.
Anyhow, see I can ramble on for ages if I let myself. See going off topic again, Lisa Anne think girl. Yes I talk to myself even when I'm writing about my day. God help me. Right now I feel God talking to me and he never stops talking when I'm writing, praying or just listening to things in church or at my C.R.H.P. meetings with my girls. Yeah, I believe the girls have touch my heart and have let me be me till I was ready to let God touch me and lead me into the work he has for me. Yeah, I know I always told myself when I was back in England I would never listen to God as he took my only family that loved me away and since then I have been alone.