Friday, August 08, 2014

Convert to be a Catholic

One should never leave the religion in which one was born or raised for anything but the most serious of reasons. Warm feelings, family, friends, a social ethos, should never be the reason for joining or leaving a religion. The fact that you do not like the priest, pastor or parishioners should never be a reason for staying or leaving. Anyone who knows me well knows that I have never been a person to "go with the flow" or seek popularity.

Though I grew up in a "Catholic" household my family was not the typical Catholic family. My mother was a member who was non-active. My step-father was not a member until late in life. Neither my brothers. I went onto religion to religion, just wanted to find answers to life's questions in my mind. Just wanted to find answers to why things happened to me and my brother due to our mother's rage and neglect.

Our mother was not a kind and friendly person in the home. Outside she make everyone think she was loving, caring and a good Catholic. on the inside she was not that sort. Me and my brother escaped her wrath. We fled England, our home to live in Southern Ireland for a few years. We then traveled through Europe, living in many different countries. We lived in Holland, Russia, Spain, Italy, Turkey, Western Australia Belgium and Germany over a many years.

Now I live in Indiana, America. My brother was sent to prison, where he shortly killed himself. I still miss him to this day. I did become a Catholic officially here. I've found that God works in marvelous ways. God has made me a messenger to spread his word to others. We are all called to be God's Messenger if we accept that duty we will be fully blessed. I know when I write my stories I know God is guiding my words as I tell a story. He is letting me spread the word of his wisdom and guidance to the young adults and children in this forgotten world.

REMEMBER: God is in you. You just have to accept him and his Holy Spirit in your life. Letting the Holy Ghost guide you in all ways.

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Revelation of God

I haven't been going to church for a matter of weeks. I found myself losing faith in God. I stopped going and my life went down the drain so to speak. It was like everyone was against me. It was like nobody wanted me around them. I found the girls from my C.R.H.P. team at St Mark's Catholic Church. I got the feeling that I wasn't welcome there for a matter of weeks. It felt like they knew I wasn't ready or studying the bible or the catechism of the catholic church. It was like God wasn't watching me like I hoped he was

I got the feeling he wasn't with me. The Holy Spirit wasn't with me I thought for such a long time. I finally went to church and the next few days I found that medicaid and my doctors office had finalized my new wheelchair. It came today. I felt that maybe going back to church made God present in my life once again. I read a few passages from my bible. It was like I felt totally different. I felt God's Holy Spirit was in me once again.

With the wheelchair being a great one. I said a short prayer of thanks to God and his angels. After this prayer I got a vision.

Vision: I fell to the floor, on my knees, which caused me immense pain. I saw two angels before me. I was whisked away into a place where I was taken. It was brilliant white light. Like I was in the presence of God's angels. I saw my Nana Lily. She was smiling like a Cheshire cat. She said "Trust God and his Holy Spirit. They will never leave you. They will always be with you child. Trust in God and his angels. They will guide you in all ways. God Loves you unconditional. Never forget that." She soon was gone and I was back on the carpet in my living room. 

I knew to trust God and never forget God is there for me and whoever believes in him. God is a loving parent to us, his children. I knew and still believe God is in my life because I want him. He is also watching what I do in life.

Poem - I'm a Survivor

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